Well after months of reading friends' blogs finally decided to try to create one for myself and keep updated my friends away from me also not a bad way as a diary to read later to see how i was thinking those days. Getting older here I was trying to get used to 20's and I end up going for 34 in a month July 27 2006...

Here we go a brief summary of my life ....

A hot summer day 27th of July 1972 as a very chubby baby in Izmir nice friendly town on the west coast of Turkey. I wish I could remember early days but my memory was never a great one so I remember early elementary school days which was very peaceful. I was a shy & quiet kid for a long time. Even during my teenage years I was always defensive and nervous while I was socializing or trying to socialize I should say.

I was always keeping a distance cause there was something inside my brain making me uncomfortable. I was always acting and was trying to be someone else when I was not alone. It took 27 years of my life to be myself and it was painful and annoying living as someone else which I was not.

Finally after a challenging period in Florida during my internship after university I had the chance to find the real me in San Francisco during one week holiday...

I took a bus from SFO to my hotel downtown San Francisco and see the shop ' BEAR ' I tried hard to memorize the streets we are passing; after I checked in I walked back through the same route and found the shop. I strangely felt like home in this little Bear Shop and luckily see an ad of Lone Star which will make me take a turn to my real life June 2000.

Even to me that sounds seriously strange to find yourself in a bar which is 16 hours away from your real home but it happened and it felt really good.

On my other posts if you will be interested I will tell after Lone Star and will reach present time soon.

Fii...